I haven't been writing in my blog lately. My posts have been lame, at best. I'm not happy with the content of what I've been hitting the "publish" button on.
I am disappointed that my posts are like milk toast: bland and ineffectual. I have much more to write about the darker side of my life (read: more interesting), but I am doing a lot of self-editing. Most of that is because there are a wide variety of people that read this blog, people whom I don't want to offend by writing with conviction. Most of my readership is people I know (most are related, in fact), people whom I see in person. People who probably don't want to know about the underbelly of Trista.
I'm not sure what to do. I've toyed with just writing what I feel and ignoring the fact that I know so many of you IRL ("in real life", for you internet newbies). I've toyed with the idea of starting an additional blog which would be completely anonymous, and all my readers would be strangers. I've toyed with making this a "kid update only" blog to share details about the two most interesting members of Team Meat. I've toyed with stopping the blog.
I'm still puzzling. I'm not happy internally with my recent writing here, and have chosen not to write several compelling posts over the last month or so because of self-editing. I guess I'll see how I feel about it as time goes on, to see which course of action I will take.
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I think everyone that starts doing a family-read blog eventually meets with the same dilemma you're facing.
The NEED to write what needs to be said while protecting yourself from everyone that's just "too close" for comfort in saying it.
A second, disconnected, anonymous blog is the best option I know of. I've contemplated it a couple times, but haven't gone through with it. There are times when shouting in the darkness is the best possible release.
There's a certain blandness about my posts simply because of the self-censorship that happens when I consider who's going be reading what I write. The knowledge that I'll see the readers face-to-face puts a big damper on just how much I'm willing to share...
I wish you luck!
Well, I've been there and done that. For me, I've got to get it out. I don't self censor much if anything and I posted it. I guess I figure people can read it if they want to or not. Not a single member of my family does. Interpret that as you wish. Anyway, I have suffered no ill effects from you or anyone else knowing my deepest and darkest, but that's not to say that this is right for you. I would most definitely be willing to read anything you write. It's amazing how many things you share with other people if you are only willing to admit to it first.
I have decided to add another blog because I want to have something just for the kids. That seems to make the most sense for me.
I support whatever you decide to do and I love you very much!
Although I am now publishing my blog under my dogs name now, I still find it difficult to say what I want as well. I have started wrighting more of what I really think, however there is alway a fine line between what I feel comfortable sharing and what I don't.
I find it very easy to share my political beliefs, though not in too much detail. I feel not as good talking about my religios beliefs, and even less comfortable talking about very personal thoughts. In any case I am attampting to brake through this wall and I have constructed for myself to present the world with a unified face. In other words,to be exactly the same person to all people in my life. It is difficult to do this as I face rejection, questions I don't necessarily want to answer, and the responces that I don't know If I am ready to hear.
This is an alternative approach to solving the problem you face, though I don't know if it is a good one.
Love your bro- Rob
As much of a pain as it may be It's important to have the outlet for life even if it's just to vent out your frustrations and/or thoughts. Who cares what everyone else may say. you need to do what feels right. Follow your heart if you've been thinking about it, it's probably for a good reason.
Good Luck,
Therese
It seems this is going around lately! I have been going through the same thing as well as many fellow bloggers I know! In the end I think I have decided to just keep updating and writing whatever is on my mind and heart that day. If it is interesting to readers so be it. If is is not...so be it too! LOL!!!
I would hate to see you stop blogging. I really enjoy your insight into mommyhood and other topics as well!
Even though it doesn't feel like it sometimes, we are so much more than just our children. Granted, it feels like they consume us, but there is a person there that existed long before they came into the picture. It is so much easier not to focus on ourselves and heap all our writing/attention on the kids.
I would love to hear more about the "underbelly" of Trista. I think we all need to do that: spend more time on ourselves. Easier said than done on most days. I will take this as my challenge too: not to lose touch with the womaan that is me apart from the woman that is mother. How I'll do this in the short-term..I'm not sure.
My favorite posts are the ones where you open up more. I want to be able to do that too, but a lot of the time I don't even know what I have been thinking about or feeling! I think it is a good thing to be able to release your thoughts some...I guess I do this best when I write in my journal, but it's harder for me to do this online! If you decide to write more deeply, I know I would really enjoy it. I miss you sister! :)
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